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| Saturday, October 24th, 2009 | |
| 12:25 pm | Dickies Comfort-waits work pants. Black, 36x32 link Dickies short-sleeve work shirt. Black, Red, Blue, Green. large. link Gurren Lagaan Special Edition part 3 link A SOUNDCARD. gah. link A headphone DAC/AMP link A bigass harddrive link Xbox Live points link Broken link Praise the Fallen link Dethalbum link Mushroomhead link Pygmy link Fugitives and Refugees link The stupid 360 wireless thing link I also need a screwdriver set and a Beard&Mustache trimmer. If you win the lottery before my party, I would kill for one of these More to come. |
| Saturday, October 3rd, 2009 | |
| 1:12 am | WHAT THE?! I just had one of the most insane, mind-bending experiences of my life. I was laying in bed, dozing in and out of sleep, when my hands being dry finally bothered me too much, so I got up to put some lotion on them and get a drink. I went out to the kitchen, grabbed a bottle of V8 Splash from the fridge and drank a bit. On the way back to the bedroom, I was thinking about checking something on my computer, so I turned to look at it. No sooner had I done this then MY COMPUTER WOKE UP. I swear to God I am not making this up. Figureing this was a sign or something, I checked everything I could think of, email, facebook, myspace, SA, and finally twitter. Strangely enough, twitter has had some kind of strange error or something, and has reposted a tweet and an indirect reply to that tweet from Donald. The funnest thing about that is that the tweet and the reply are about how facebook's page is always out of chronological order. I just got off my computer, put it back to sleep, came to bed, and wrote this. Im so confused. And sleep deprived, which probably isnt helping. Night. |
| Friday, September 18th, 2009 | |
| 7:25 am | Ow. Oh man. How the hell did I get back here. Waking up from a dead sleep to a throbbing toothache is not something I've done for a long time. Where did all my money go? I've got to stop buying stupid shit for no reason. This is why I need full time at work. Here's a thought: Lets make sure whatever healthcare reforms actually get enacted cover dental work. Please. God its been so long since I've been here. Pain cuts through your mind like a knife. All you want to think about is way to make it stop. But its so hard to think. Not just because it hurts but because its interrupted your sleep. This is all too familiar is all I'm saying. Except this time its switched up location. Same pain, different quadrant. I'm so afraid that by the time I do finally get dental insurance, all my teeth will be too far gone. I'm religious now about maintenance. I really wish I didn't still have to suffer for the mistakes of so long ago. But I guess thats just life. OTC Painkillers take the edge off, but I don't think I'll be sleeping again any time soon. |
| Monday, September 7th, 2009 | |
| 2:49 am | Synecdoche Monologue of Awesome Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make. You can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won't know for twenty years! And you may never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce... And they say there's no fate, but there is, it's what you create. And even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead, or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain wasting years for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right, but it never comes. Or it seems to, but it doesn't really. So you spend you time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along, something to make you feel connected, something to make you feel cherished, something to make you feel loved. And the truth is is, I feel so angry! And the truth is, I feel so fucking sad! And the truth is, I've felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long, I've been pretending I'm okay, just to get along! I don't know why. Maybe because...no one wants to hear about my misery...because they have their own. Fuck everybody. Amen. |
| Monday, August 17th, 2009 | |
| 9:59 pm | Tarantino's favorite 20 movies of the last 20 years Battle Royale Anything Else Audition The Blade Boogie Nights Dazed and Confused Dogville Fight Club Friday The Host The Insider Joint Security Area Lost in Translation The Matrix Memories of Murder Police Story 3 (Supercop) Shaun of the Dead Speed Team America Unbreakable |
| Tuesday, August 4th, 2009 | |
| 5:24 pm | Countries with Universal heathcare and their life expectancy: Argentina 76 Austria 79 Australia 81 Belgium 79 Brazil 72 Canada 80 Chile 80 China 73 Cuba 78 Costa Rica 79 Cyprus 79 Denmark 78 Finland 79 France 80 Germany 79 Greece 80 Iceland 82 Ireland 78 Israel 80 Italy 80 Japan 82 Luxembourg 79 Netherlands 80 New Zealand 80 Oman 75 Portugal 78 Russia 65 (ouch) Saudi Arabia 76 Spain 80 Sweden 81 South Korea 79 Sri Lanka 75 Ukraine 68 United Kingdom 79 United States: 78 |
| Wednesday, July 29th, 2009 | |
| 11:11 pm | top ten favorite movies from the last 9 years Why? I dunno 2008 1. The Dark Knight 2. The Wrestler 3. Wall-E 4. Slumdog Millionare 5. Burn After Reading 6. Hellboy 2 7. Man on Wire 8. Cloverfield 9. Iron Man 10 Speed Racer 2007 1. Superbad 2. Hot Fuzz 3. Juno 4. Transformers 5. Across the Universe 6. Into the Wild 7. Knocked Up 8. 3:10 to Yuma 9. Ratatouille 10. Michael Clayton 2006 1. The Fountain 2. Pan's Labyrinth 3. The Prestige 4. V for Vendetta 5. Silent Hill 6. The Illusionist 7. Casino Royale 8. Clerks 2 9. A scanner Darkly 10. Lucky Number Slevin 2005 1. Sin City 2. Batman Begins 3. Good Night, and Good Luck 4. Hard Candy 5. 40 Year Old Virgin 6. Lady Vengeance 7. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory 8. Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy 9. Constantine 10. Star Wars Episode 3 2004 1. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind 2. Shaun of the Dead 3. Anchorman 4. Hellboy 5. Man on Fire 6. The Machinist 7. I Heart Huckabees 8. Spiderman 2 9. Kill Bill 2 10. The Increadibles Honorables: Napolean Dynamite, Dodgeball, Troy, Ocean's 12, House of Flying Daggers, Kung Fu Hustle, Dawn of the Dead 2003 1. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King 2. Matrix Reloaded/Revolutions 3. Pirates : Curse of the Black Pearl 4. Last Samurai 5. City of God 6. Oldboy 7. The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen 8. Monster 9. X2 10. Big Fish 2002 1. Lord of the Rings: Two Towers 2. Star Wars: Attack of the Clones 3. Spiderman 4. 28 Days Later 5. Spirited Away 6. Adaptation 7. Blade 2 8. Equilibrium 9. One Hour Photo 10. Men in Black 2 2001 1. Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship 2. A Beautiful Mind 3. Vanilla Sky 4. Memento 5. Ocean's Eleven 6. Amelie 7. Not Another Teen Movie 8. Moulin Rouge! 9. Zoolande 10. Black Hawk Down 2000 1. Snatch 2. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon 3. X-Men 4. Unbreakable 5. American Psycho 6. Gone in 60 Seconds 7. Battle Royale 8. Gladiator 9. Requiem for a Dream 10. Traffic |
| Friday, July 17th, 2009 | |
| 3:28 am | I'm so glad this is happening the night before I leave for my vacation. SO GLAD.  Unavailable Funds Fee So yeah. I have a positive balance. I'm even getting paid AS WE SPEAK, and yet I'm being charged $70 for NOT overdrafting my account. I had to beg my friends to help me out to try and keep this exact thing from happening, but since my imaginary balance of money was somehow at some point less then my actual balance of money, this is my punishment. The duplicate withdrawal and deposit you see have since corrected themselves, but it still reads me as being overdrawn $31.21 So what did I just pay $70 for? Anybody? I'm going to try to take everyone through this step by step. This morning, my bank balance was $478.79 Available balance: $398.79 I made two payments. Two payments I knew would not clear until after midnight tonight when I got paid one for 70.73 to Brighthouse one for 80.55 to Verizon after that, balance is still $478.79 Available: $243.51 At some point today, the rent check finally cleared. She deposited it on the 16th, that's fair. I'm still at a loss as to how that equates to TWO unavailable funds fees. Here's how things have settled since I started typing this entry:  So at no point today did my available balance dip below zero, at least not that was visable to me. I check my bank account religiously. Update: Calling. Lady seemed very nice, spent a lot of time and energy trying to explain to me how it happened. I countered with everything I had, but it was no use. I tried to be genial but not give up but she really had an answer for everything. I finally just asked if there was anything she could do to help me out as I really didn't see it coming. She refunded half the charge. So I got $35 back. She tried to sell me on their way2save BS, which I politely declined and let her go. Its now 4:30 AM. I was supposed to be asleep hours ago. I still think Available Balance Fees are absolute horseshit. I'm glad I got my $35 but it just feels like getting screwed just a liiitle bit less. That $35 could have gone in the gas tank. Ya know, for my trip. The most ironic thing? I paid those bills in the morning so I could get to sleep early tonight. HAH. |
| Monday, July 13th, 2009 | |
| 7:29 am | Crap. If anyone wants to loan me $150 until Friday, I'll love you forever. |
| Sunday, July 12th, 2009 | |
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| Saturday, July 4th, 2009 | |
| 4:34 pm | Question Ideas Do you choose your support acts? how? How was the gothic cruise? (Ronan DJ'd last year) Possible follow up: Why all the DJ gigs after last tour? Why the hell didn't they come to Tampa first? Ghost? Reformation 01. Will there be a second? How did they afford the packaging/dvd at low price? Holy shit Art of Conflict. Haven't heard anything this militant and aggressive in years. A&F/PTF How much input does Mark have? "more DRUMS!" No lyrics and very minimalist packaging for OFPG Gear used for new album? Soft or hard synths? Modcom? Modcom's influence on VNV? Anachron America. Signing other bands? Overall goal having own label? Hows your leg? |
| Friday, June 26th, 2009 | |
| 4:34 am | First off, bets on when MJ is going to come back as a zombie and dance around the world? secondly, lyrics: if you and I had been anything else than these tormented souls we would never have gone so far to become what we are if you and I had never seen the world through the eyes of a child we would never have wanted to stop time sleepers passing by if you and I had been anything less than these disenfranchised minds we would have looked the other way as we passed each other by and of all the things I know from the broken who I ask is to look beyond this place, stop staring at the fog thinking only what went wrong I know there are days too dark and hard to take I hope you know this is just one day you'll have to face this is not the whole of your life this is one day this is one day this is one day one day of the whole of your life one day of the whole of your life ------------------- I climb down to watch the tide mark the time that slips away where the oceans meet the sky the drawing out of self and bitter cold go side by side the self-sustained-obscurity the sense i can't maintain the ghost that never wanes I walk out to meet my fate in the receding of the day in hope the tide will grant me stay from the ghost that never wanes so torn and afraid lifelines, lives faces none can wear away time slips away let them rest upon the waves peace at last for those who wait before I go out too far before the depth i seek moves further away I walk out to meet my fate in the receding of the day in hope the tide will grant me stay from the ghost that never wanes |
| Sunday, May 10th, 2009 | |
| 5:50 pm | Reformation 01 First Impressions Reformation, the much-anticipated Matter + Form/Judgement remix and b-sides album is out this Tuesday, with a live performance DVD, all for $17.99. It's kind of strange to review a remix album, but here goes. First song is a Modcom remix of Chrome from Matter + Form. Its very Dance Floor. Heavier beat and re-imagined synth line. Less lyrics, more repetition. Not much more to say, a simple but fun song. Next up is the SITD remix of Chrome, an altogether different song from the first. Containing the entire lyrical content, with a wide synth soundscape. It's reminiscent of Seabound, very epic. Listen for the breakdown after the first Chorus. Excellent track. Finally there's the Apop remix, which sounds very much like a modern Apop song. It's up to you whether or not that's a good thing. Apprently the vocal effects on Ronan's voice wasn't "Chrome" enough, so now its been put through a metallic blender. Thankfully, it's the shortest of the three. Starting out the next round of remixes is the ABM version of Interceptor. Everything an instrumental remix should be, it plays with the original sounds and structure enough so that it stands on its own, but is instantly recognizable. It doesn't carry the same cinematic qualities as the original, with a harsher, more industrial feel. Following that is SAM's remix of Nemesis. SAM will be accompanying VNV for their North American tour this year. They're much more EBM, in the vein of Combichrist and God Module, and this track is no exception. SAM Manages to make an already passionately angry song sound downright pissed off. Very fast, very hard, very loud. All in less then 4 minutes. Frozen Plasma takes the reins for the next track, remixing Carry You. Already one of the strongest tracks in recent VNV Nation history, Frozen Plasma captures the feel of the original track , while giving it a much colder, simpler sound. It loses much of the majestic feel of the original that made it so great, but makes it more of a dancefloor track. The last of the remixes is As it Fades 2nd Movement. Based on the last track of Judgement, it's more of a follow-up then a remix. Featuring full lyrics (the original is an instrumental) and a much more in-your-face sound. The lyrics follow the same theme as Judgement, the picture of a world on the edge of turmoil, a world in much need of change. The track culminates with a very strong, very uplifting end, much like Neverending Light from Matter + Form. The first of the unreleased tracks is Still Waters. It hardly sounds like a VNV Nation song at all until about a minute in. A very minimalist intro leads to a Matter + Form-esque rolling bassline. A full two minutes into the track, Ronan begins singing to the deepest and darkest parts of us. The suffering child, the lonely man. "Close your eyes.... Here you have strength... you don't have to live in pain." Continuing the theme of strength in adversity present in much of their music, Ronan reminds us of the power of silence. Precipice is a song about forgiving yourself and moving forward. It sounds like it would be right at home on Judgement, a thumping bassline, strong synthline, good structure. A danceable track with a message. Its hard to see why this was cut from the lineup, very strong track. Suffer carries us out of the three unreleased tracks with an angelic chorus over sweeping strings, No lyrics, no percussion, just sweet song and music. Without a word, Ronan and Mark portray the sense of hope present in all their music. The last three tracks are from the Gene Generation soundtrack. Ronan joined with Scott Glassgow to score a number of the instrumental tracks for the film. The movie itself comes off as a cheesy, low-budget cyberpunk film, but the soundtrack is excellent, these three tracks being no exception. The signature VNV sound is there, focusing on the epic soundscapes and driving synthlines that have defined tracks like Strata/Interceptor and Lightwave. Overall, a very good release that's been a long time coming. Expect to hear a number of songs from this at the club, if you haven't already. With all these unreleased and hard-to-find tracks together in one place, and a full live performance DVD, this release is a must-have for any VNV fan. |
| Friday, May 8th, 2009 | |
| 2:16 am | Star Trek movie was fucking awesome. See it. Go. With that, I steal this from Ryan: ToplessRobot.com's Top ten nerd Arguments. 1. Jason vs. Freddy 2. Is Pluto a planet? 3. The Juggernaut vs. The Blob 4. Would sex with Superman kill Lois Lane? 5. Who's the best Doctor? 6. Joel or Mike (MST3k)? 7. Do Balrogs have wings? 8. The book vs. the movie 9. Dc, or Marvel? 10. Star Trek or Star Wars? My answers: 1. Freddy. 2. yep. 3. JUGGERNAUT 4. Nope 5. Uhh. I will get flak but #9 6. Joel. Forever. 7. What? 8. 9/10 the book 1/10 the movie 9. as much as I love Batman, Marvel. 10. Star. Fucking. Trek. |
| Saturday, May 2nd, 2009 | |
| 8:55 am | I'm still alive. Twitter sees more of me these days. Spending more time on ye olde wow, doing cool new stuff with the guys and spending valuable gaming time with Sammy. Speaking of which, 1 year is the 28th. Tomorrow will be one year since the kiss that started all this. I don't regret a single moment. She is wonderful in ways you can't imagine. |
| Thursday, January 29th, 2009 | |
| 8:01 am | 8 Months and Two Years 8 months ago around this time, Sammy and I officially became a couple. 2 years ago around this time, my friend Pat passed away. Talk about mixed emotions. Sammy: Its not always easy, but it has always been worth it. Having you here every day is like a dream come true. We will find a way to make it work. I love you more and more. If I start being Bob and curling up into a ball of self-interest just hit me on the head. Remind me I love you more than life. Pat: Still miss you man. I can't comprehend that its been 2 years. I still think you're gonna pop online, or that I'm gonna see you riding around. I'll never forget. In other news, I'M UP AT 8 AM WHY GOD?!?!? 9-7 today. Im drinking a lot of coffee. For those of you who don't know, I'm on Twitter. Its easier for me the throw random thoughts on the internet from my phone then to try and think of everything when I come home at night. I never update my poor LJ anymore. Work is going pretty well. I really am trying to do well right now because we have the hours for me to work. I like money. Yak atcha later. |
| Wednesday, January 21st, 2009 | |
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| Monday, January 19th, 2009 | |
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| Friday, January 2nd, 2009 | |
| 8:38 am | I have a wonderful family. I have a beautiful woman. I have the most amazing friends in the world. Its going to be a good year. Its funny to me how I keep thinking everything with Sammy and I is just going to go to shit. It keeps surprising me. SHE keeps surprising me. Its awesome that I can still feel those butterflies when she sneaks up on me. I'm so in love XD |
| Wednesday, December 24th, 2008 | |
| 8:19 am | Sleep? What sort of things wake Bob in the middle of the night? Ideas like weaponizeing Professor X's ability by extracting stem cells and cloning neurons that could be interfaced with highly-sophisticated electrodes. I'm assuming the stem cell thing came from an article in the paper about extracting cells from some random part of the body then tricking them into dividing into stem cells, and the interface thing is from some show I watched on discovery where they grew brain cells in a pitri dish and interfaced them with electrodes, and made them fly a plane (Link) Also this technology could be made into an alarm clock that would just send psychic impulses to go to sleep and wake up refreshed. Merry Christmas. I'm such a nerd. |
| Sunday, December 7th, 2008 | |
| 4:25 am | Birthday was good. I love my friends. I'm sick, and more recently, broke. Missed out on work today because I spent all night nursing my poor girlfriend. Work tomorrow but now I'm the one getting sick. Bought things for myself with my birthday money and now I'm paying for it. Should have known. Trying to stay positive. I really do love my friends. You all keep me going. Freakin Holidays. |
| Tuesday, November 11th, 2008 | |
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| Wednesday, October 29th, 2008 | |
| 12:46 am | Nine Inch Nails. I have no words. Post from SA: That was the single greatest thing I have ever been witness to. Sporadic: He's saving Reptile for you, I guess. Didn't play it. Played, in no particular order, that I can rememeber: 999,999 1,000,000 March of the Pigs Closer Wish Head Like A Hole Terrible Lie Gave Up 4 amazing ghosts songs Ghosts Piggy The Frail into The Wretched (Oh God I died) Hand that Feeds Only Survivalism Good Soldier The Great Destroyer God Given Beginning of the End Letting You Discipline Echoplex Head Down Ended with Hurt and In this Twilight I might have missed a couple, and they are definitely out of order. They played forever. He told everyone to vote. I got a backstage pass and a nifty limited edition poster because the girl in front of us won a contest. The whole thing was a fucking travesty of mis-communication and garbage. I didn't get to meet the band, but hey, free poster. |
| Tuesday, October 28th, 2008 | |
| 3:27 am | In 16 hours the show starts. A few hours after that and I'll finally see NIN Live. God. I can't sleep. This is going to be amazing. This week has already been great. Rock Band 2. Imperative Reaction. 5 Months with my amazing girlfriend. Spending time with Danneh. Watching the Rays in the World Series. Life gets hard sometimes but its times like this that make it worth it. |
